PONDER.
“I know you love him.”
“But are you in love with him?”
Asked Mior and George.
Well, harassment like this is an everyday obstacle I need to face. And yes, I do know that they have no bad intention. They just want the best for me. But who can tell what is the best when everything is just so ambiguous?
Back then, I blushed at the awkwardness of the situation and laughed at the fact that I couldn’t answer a simple question like that. So I thought the question was that simple. Of course, my immature mind saw the highly different issues as a similar statement.
Love.
In love.
How different could it be?
The answer is, VERY VERY different.
In time, I manage to understand and grasp the ideas.
Lucky for me.
It may be hard to leave a partner.
It may be hurtful to end a relationship.
Because, there is love.
But being in love is another different story.
The core subjects are honesty and sincerity.
And the best teachers are patience and tolerance.
As loveable monster puts it,
“I LOVE MY CAR BUT I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH IT”.
FAITH AND HOPE
To undo it, I don’t want to.
To carry on, I am not strong.
Faith is blur while hope is clear.
I KNOW BETTER
I may be naive.
I may be dumb.
But at least I know better.
Say whatever you please.
Write whatever you wish.
They are nothing but proofs.
Of the stupidity.
Those who speak know nothing.
Those who do not speak are the masters.
So says Jackie Chan.
I need not be spiteful.
I need not be rude.
To convey and express.
I just need to cry and laugh.
And right now, I am laughing my tears out.
Damn you. It is hilarious. 
BREAD AND BUTTER
This is a bread-and-butter blog entry to express my gratitude for your attention, love, care, time, effort, jokes, laughs, smiles, touch and existence.
P/s: I miss you.
WHAT IS SPOKEN FLIES. WHAT IS WRITTEN NEVER DIES.
Parallel to the adage, I believe that some sweet thoughts should be issued or reissued to preserve their lives and value. Ten years from now, these entries would serve as the only evidences that we could hang to. Senility might take charge one day and many memories would swim away leaving us dull with nothing to reminisce about. So here I am, jotting every pleasant face, voice, name, melody, lyric, incident, date, day, and venue.
NOT THAT BRAND NEW
1. The feeling is not brand new. Only it is stronger.
2. The experience is not brand new. Only it is warmer.
3. The ecstasy is not brand new. Only it is better.
COMPATIBILITY
I saw you. You saw me.
People saw the chemistry.
People set us up.
Or perhaps fate stitched us.
We have to part.
I prayed to God for the best.
Yet not knowing what the best was.
The best is you.
For now we are still here.
Together.
I saw you changed. You saw me
changed.
We love each other.
And another.
One tiny gem.
This is when my flaws become your
fetishes.
Fights.
Arguments.
But we are both here.
Still.
Incompatibility never is the
issue.
Because
I know how you work.
You know how I work.
This is about us.
There are you and me.
And you and me only.
We need not blame others.
Let it be the best or worst.
It comes from us.
I love you.
Forever and today~
(I KNOW HE WILL NOT READ THIS.BUT
MY FAITHFUL AUDIENCE WILL.RIGHT TOP?RIGHT IBRAHIM ISMAIL?WEHEHE.)
LET BYGONES BE BYGONES.
A paradigm shift results in a
change of perspective.
I want to put the past behind me.
I want to dump the hurt and the
sorrow.
I want to throw the smiles and the
laughter.
For things have changed and will
keep on changing.
This is the opening of a new
chapter.
Welcome again, whoever you are
now.
PHONETIC SYMBOLS ACCOMPANIED BY IRRELEVANT THOUGHTS.
MASTERMIND: SIR SUTHAGAR.
1. YOU
CAN’T ASK SOMEONE TO LOVE YOU.
Agreed. I have never
asked you to love me but lucky for me you say you do. And you have never failed
to pamper me with indescribable words expressing your feelings for me though I
have never asked you to.
2. DON’T
THROW AWAY A FRIEND.
Too late. I have made
the mistake a few years ago and now am missing the dear friend tenderly. As
lost time can never return, I cannot undo this. All I can do is to pray for the
happiness of us both.
3. I’M
SORRY.
For the pain I brought
into your life.
